Thank you @Rockpool for everything you have done for me along this journey as well. The amazing support I have had from both you and others at SANE have been invaluable in helping me to even get to this point. I honestly would not be here doing all this right now without all your support and I will be forever grateful for that
hi @Zoe7 thanks for your encouragement with my job interviewing, it's kind of you & you're right I must have come a long way to be able to try to get work!
That's awesome that your new school is such a positive place for you, you deserve it. Once I left a toxic workplace and my farewell gift was ear-rings and I don't have peirced ears - like they hadn't even ever seen me! A very awkward moment for them. It was a great decision to leave. Have a good day today.
DBT was good today - we had a lot of laughs and it made it a lot quicker to get through the 2 hours. My pdoc session was a bit more in-depth than usual - we talked about my self-doubts in respect to work and basically every aspect of my life - going righ back to my childhood. We touched on where that has all come from but I think I handled it quite well. It does make a difference that I can see little glimpses that I will be able to cope with my job and the support I am receiving from the new school is amazing. There is no-one writing copious amounts of notes and everyone is just presuming I am capable and competent and letting me get on with it. It is a nice feeling to have.
So many of my self-doubts are deep seated - I have never had confidence in myself to do my job despite all evidence showing I could. Maybe that has been the environment I have been working in. When I was teaching Art I had much more confidence in myself and the Principal I had when I was doing that was very supportive - it makes such a difference to the culture of the school. I need to believe more in myself but we all know that is very hard to do when we struggle so much with self-esteem issues. That is where our history keeps rearing it's ugly head and adversely affects our own beliefs of ourselves.
Going to try to relax this afternoon and do a little tidying up when I can. Super tired at the moment - think the pdoc session took more out of me than usual - but do need to get a few things done before work tomorrow.
Hoping everyone is having an okay day - sending you all some light and just a little hope to those that need it
Thanks @Hamsolo01 I think you are continuously showing that you have the ability to get things done too buddy - the evidence is there with how hard you work on applications and you get rewarded with opportunities that many can only dream of - the Poland course is definitely one of those and whether you actually get to do any of it or not you were chosen to participate and that is pretty huge.
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