My children are still caught in the cross-fire of our divorces ..... I say "divorces" because what I thought was The Divorce is actually a set of mini-divorces ..... government undoing of legal union, church accountability and u doing of vows, financial divorce, business divorce, guardianship disaster !!!
Becsuse our children are all so close, the effects of all these things are stiil reverberating across all of them .... and one is now undergoing their own separation ๐. Thankfully they are nothing like their father, and will show him up by their example of moving through the same processes with an integrity that he doesn't possess.
Its very hard to protect my children from further harm as they try to struggle back into their feet, the younger ones particularly, especially as their father is still wearing a mask and pretending to be who we all thought he was, fir them ...., and I have to wait fir their own awakening to the truth ..... but he has taken himself off overseas, suddenly and unwisely ..... which may in fact be an hallelujah moment. It may be in his absence that they can begin to truly recover, and then see him with new eyes when the Covid carrousel stops and they come back into direct contact with him again.
The more life tumbles and changes, the harder it is to maintain a web of lies .... trying to remember what you told to whom, and when, or in relation to what else ......
At the end of the day, all of that is going to have to work itself out independently of me. All I can do is keep standing in my own integrity to the best of my ability, and just be there for my kids, being the me they know me to be.
@Zoe7
