@Tryingtobenough
Well done for reaching out in a safe place.
Depression is such a hard condition.
I was your age when it hit me the hardest.
I still to this day never feel enough. Slowly working on that.
I started walking up the hill out the back as much as I could when I had childcare and inbetween work. Usually it would be 9 or 10am and hot as Hades! But it made me feel in control. All I had to do was one foot in front of the other, no one but me pushing or pulling.
I'm not saying anything about your health status but...I wish someone had told me about the hormone hell in store for me in my 40s. Take supplements now!
Listening to dance or good music helped me too. I makes me feel less alone when lyrics ring true with my own situation and feelings.
Take time to sit with your feelings. Disappointment, loneliness, frustration, whatever. Name it. Then challenge it. Justify it. Be honest with it.
I research my issues. Sometimes I find things that scare me a bit. Make me feel defective.
Feelings are just feelings though. Name them. Then tell them to go shut up and sit in the back seat because you are enough and you are beautiful and interesting and amazing.
I don't always have the right things to say but...I find in these forums, it helps me clarify my position and my own issues when seeking to help others.
Take care. Breathe.
