Why?
God only knows
Why I have these thoughts that flicker
Across the perimeters of my mind
There is one voice in particular
That can be so very unkind
It started as a small child
These thoughts that he sends
And the bad behaviour
That he forces me to lend
I don’t understand it
For I had done nothing wrong
But alas I do hear him
And he can be
Oh so strong
He says he is here for my protection
But I don’t know why
And because he is here
It forces my nature to be shy
I don’t like to talk about him
As I fear no one will believe
But when I do talk to a therapist
My demons I do relieve
My moods can vary greatly
It depends on what is happening in my head
But I feel I have to be careful
For what is to be said
I know that I am not crazy
And I am quite smart
But to disguise what is going on in my mind
Is truly a piece of art
Sometimes things get so bad
And my voices are cruel to me
That all I can do
Is for help for me to plea
My best friend is an angel
For he does try and understand
Why I have these bad behaviours
And his help is oh so grand
Over the years I have had many diagnoses’
Which can be very confusing
But sometimes these evaluations
I don’t believe
And to comply with treatment
I am often refusing
Though now I am in a good space
My mind is nice and calm
I am really relieved
That I don’t have thoughts of self harm
I know that I have take responsibility
For how in this world I act
I have to take hold of my bad voices
And take control of them in fact
I do breathe deeply
And let out one big sigh
When I hear these voices
I ask the simple question
WHY?
