Life and trauma

[Former-Member]

@Jynx I'm literally at the point of calling 000 cos I feel like I'm just going to lose control. But I don't even know what to say, I can't focus on anything. I have to keep reading what I've said to you in other messages cos I just can't remember what I've written already.

Scared is a complete understatement right now. 

[Jynx]

Very normal to be forgetting right now @Former-Member your brain is probably in shut down so new info isn't gonna sink in. 

You could call Lifeline (13 11 14) or SCBS (1300 659 467) instead? Literally if you can squeeze out the words 'flashbacks, need grounding' hopefully that would be all they need. 

I just want to let you know in advance that I finish my shift at 10pm. Just so I don't up and disappear on you suddenly (well I would say goodnight but it might still feel abrupt) - I will be wrapping up in about 45 minutes. I'm here with ya till then tho (and another mod will be around after). 

[Former-Member]

@Jynx i don't know why this is happening or even really what's happening. I've been waiting in chat queues with lifeline and SCBS for over 30 minutes. I can't manage a phone call right now. 

Ok, thanks for the heads up.

[Just]

@Former-Member Hi, I can stay around for a while if U want. Can U think about your Rosella. How happy U are when U first found him/her. Raising it up from a baby.

[Former-Member]

@Just hi. Thanks. I can't even think about anything right now. Every bit of my energy is focused on trying to stay in control. 

[Just]

@Former-Member Is it a boy or girl? Or your not sure?

[Just]

@Former-Member Your doing a great job. Just breath that's all your body needs.

[Former-Member]

@Just not sure.

[Just]

@Former-Member breath, it's all in the breathing. Try to slow it down if going to fast 

[Former-Member]

@Just i can't even slow it down.