everything is weird

[Eden1919]

i dont know how exactly to explain this but everything feels weird and not right and like something big is about to happen and i just i everything is a lot and my head is all over the place and cause i keep no one here is a human not even me and they have trapped me here and i keep trying to get out but i cant they wont let me and i dont know what to do and it is hard to explain i just i dont know what to do anymore i dont even know how to ask what i am trying to ugh why is it so hard. 

[Ziezie]

I'm sorry you feel that way, that really sucks.. Ive been feeling a similar way too,

[SleeplessRaven]

I have this exact feeling… it’s like everything is surreal - everything you look at and hear and see doesn’t feel real anymore because there’s something blocking you from it. And there’s people monitoring you and doing things to stop you getting out. 

[TunedIn]

Hi @Eden1919 

Sounds like things are very confusing for you right now where your head feels all over the place and everything feels weird. Do you have any in person/phone supports you can reach out to right now 🌟? If you've ever felt this way before, has anything in particular helped you to cope 🌺?

TunedIn 🌿

[rav3n]

hey @Eden1919, how are you holding up? 

it must be overwhelming having to doubt things and feel like you can't trust anyone, even yourself. is there someone you do trust that you can reach out to? 

[Eden1919]

@rav3n @TunedIn  I am seeing my psychologist soon so I might be able to talk to them but the trouble is idk how to explain what is going on properly like everything is just not quite right when I try to explain stuff and idk what to do. 

[rav3n]

talking to your psychologist sounds like a great idea! in terms of how to explain it, would writing it down help? maybe jotting down some dot points about what feels wrong (i.e. noting down: when does this feeling come up most? what does it feel like for you physically/emotionally? what sort of thoughts pop up?) @Eden1919 

it doesn't have to make complete sense, but just having some thoughts/feelings written down might help your psych get a rough idea 😊

sometimes our thoughts can get loud or confusing. when i get unhelpful thoughts, i try to sit through it and remind myself that thoughts come and go - they don't require me to take any action. it can be uncomfortable, but they eventually pass. i hope this weird feeling you're experiencing passes soon too 💙

[Paralyzed]

Hi @Eden1919, 

Thanks for sharing this with us. I immediately went into research mode! I’m not sure of your history or diagnosis with mental health, so I would be guessing but it could be a number of things. 

My immediate thought was mental and physical, both or one of those, overload. Which can happen when we don’t get enough sleep, internal or external pressures that are causing high levels of stress, underlying physical problems, and another reason could be delirium 🤔 anxiety and stress together, can make the mind and body do all sorts of things. 

Your mind and body are trying to tell you something and it’s great that you have an appointment with your psychologist. This is definitely something that needs to be investigated. 

I’ve suffered from delirium before and it’s not a very pleasant experience. 

Please keep us updated and I hope you can get some answers soon! Sending you lots of positive energy. 

P. 

[Eden1919]

@rav3n @Paralyzed  thank you both for your replies i talked to my psychologist and she said some of the stuff was psychosis related which idk how i feel about that like i just have a lot of thoughts about stuff which idk how to explain it is complicated but anyway i have to see the psychiatrist tomorrow and i wrote them a letter but yeah i am nervous. 

[rav3n]

so glad to hear you were able to chat to your psychologist about it!! i imagine that would've been tricky, but you did it!! @Eden1919 

it's okay to be nervous. i hope that your psychiatrist can offer some more answers, and that the nervous feeling eases. we're here for you 💙