rant from me...

[t00thy_cut13]

hi, im new... i've been feeling horrible about eating lately and i just want to talk about it somewhere other people can see it. I feel like im losing control of what i eat. [removed by moderator] ive been failing miserably recently. I feel like i need to eat, even if i'm not hungry, like a subconscious requirement. i'm really scared to gain weight, and i feel like i'm spiralling out of control, eating too much every day. I usually have two 'bad' days a week, but this week, i've had no good days at all and i feel hopeless. All i want is not to be fat my whole life. so many people are born skinny, and i just feel like my body hates me;  I hate it. I feel helpless, and like there's no good option at all.

[Jynx]

Hi @t00thy_cut13 welcome to the forums - I am sorry to hear that you're struggling with this at the moment. I know there's a few members who struggle with disordered eating, so please know that you're not alone. 

I just wanted to let you know I've edited your post to remove description of a disordered eating behaviour. Please don't be discouraged! New members often have little edits here and there, just to ensure posts are within the Community Guidelines. One of them requires limited discussion of ED and related behaviours, because they can be quite triggering for folks who struggle with it. Nothing you need to do about this, I just wanted to let you know. 

I'm glad you've decided to reach out for some support. I've struggled with body image issues a lot, ever since I was a kid... one of the 'bigger' kids. Kids can be cruel... and society itself really pushes such unhealthy values for being 'skinny'. Our bodies are so much more than what we look like, and we all deserve kindness and compassion regardless of how we look.

Just wondering if you're also connected in with the Butterfly Foundation? They have a support line, and I think some forums too, though I've not really explored them. 

I hope you find this to be a warm and welcoming community 💜

[SmilingGecko]

Hello @t00thy_cut13 I started my rebounding exercise routine recently and read that it stops emotional eating. I have noticed I eat less when rebounding. The rebounder gets your body to produce feel good hormones that disincentivise you from eating more. Rebounders have a maximum weight so if you are over a certain weight it would not be recommended. I guess there would be other ways to create feel good hormones which may enable you to overcome this issue. What do you think?

[Appleblossom]

@t00thy_cut13 

Food intake can be so tricky to navigate, as can the forum guidelines. We all try. Glad @SmilingGecko had some ideas.

Food is a daily and essential NEED.  So we cant put it totally out of mind, and have nothing in the house to eat.  Temptations are always around the corner...

When I was carrying my most weight, I couldnt obsess about it, as it would make things worse.  The most helpful thing was a Buddhist meditation practice on Love of self and all beings ... called Metta.

https://www.healthline.com/health/metta-meditation 

It was fundamental.  

Gradually incorporating activity into my life meant I was distracted from emotional eating as much.

Good luck and welcome to the forum.  There are lots of threads, discussions and different folks floating around.