Come matey, Karma bus, we do certain things because of our illness, it's no an excuse but more of an explanation.
The right medication, the right mind set and a few changes can do wonders.
The "it can be that bad" or "just get over it " certainly isn't a help, if only it was that easy. It's taken years to get to this point, how can it be resolved in a day?
You will have some work to do my friend, but you are going in the right direction already, you're doing something about it, private health, asking for help, coming on here, that all says you have a future.
I hope you can look back in a couple of years and say "God, what was I thinking". I know why I was thinking what I was, but still ask myself why.
The big change that some find hard is putting their mental health first, so what if some medication put weight on (unless that's your issue), overweight but still here is better that not being here.
Having people in your life with mental health issues can also be good, don't take on their problems, but at least you can understand each other.
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