Hi there @Katastrophy ,
Welcome to the forums 
I am sorry to hear how challenging it has been for you. Besides the forums, it could be helpful to have a one to one chat with a health professional such as counsellor, a psychologist, or your GP. 🌻
Have you heard of the SANE Help Centre? We have great counsellors who can listen and chat with you about what has happened. They are available from 10 am to 10 pm Monday to Friday via phone 1800 18 726, Web-chat, or you can “Book a Call” with them here.