Oh @Former-Member
It all does sound too hard 😢 You have so much on your plate, no wonder one session didn't help.
I experienced something similar in a small community. I don't know your situation or details and I know mine was very different but I wanted to share that even though it's really hard right now with holding your head high it will get better. I lived with so much shame for two things, one was my suicide attempt that the town found out about and what my kids went through and one was something I had no control over. I couldn't face anyone or look people in the eye for a few years before I moved. Last year I went back there and to my shock a few people bought it up and I was surprised at the support there was for me. I think you do just need to try to be yourself when you face people and try to not assume the worst even though that's what you'll feel. I dropped my head in shame so much but in the end people are mostly forgiving and see past the obvious. In your case it might take a while but I think you are such a kind and caring person that will always shine above any gossip going around. It's not easy though, I just wanted to offer you hope about that part.
as for the family court orders I'm so sorry. It sounds really tough. Hopefully your son's surgery goes smoothly. I've had two of mine have surgery when aged 4 and 9 and it's hard to go through when you don't know how they'll go. Im really angry that they couldn't find a better way to help with meds to give you some sleep and respite.
I know there is nothing I can say to help or change anything but hang in there because it has to change at some stage. It can't possibly stay this stressful for you. Some of these things will be over soon and some will take a while but at some point these big stresses will all subside.
Sending hugs 💜🤗
