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[Former-Member]

Does anybody else struggle at night. I find it really hard at night. easily triggered, anxiety, panic attacks, flashbacks, can't sleep, nightmares when i do sleep. every sound is a possible threat, put music on to cover over any sounds then spend the night scared im missing a sound that could alert me to a coming danger...

no meds to help. breathing exercises, relaxation exercises help for a few minutes but not long. its not always this bad but so much going on and im struggling so much. feel like im losing the plot again. that ive been barely keeping afloat in shark infested waters with a cyclone over head.  

[Pepsimax]

@Former-Member I can't sleep either not have good night it is so hard a lot of the time you can chat to me

[Former-Member]

hi @Pepsimax sorry you're stuggling too. does anything help on a bad night?

[Pepsimax]

I watch tv but nothing on now I do deep breathing too but as you say it only last a little bit

[Former-Member]

life is just too hard sometimes. 

nothing makes any lasting difference. @Pepsimax just feeling very overwhelmed tonight.

[Pepsimax]

Life is hard a lot of the time my support worker hasn't been very helpful lately she is meant to ring

[Former-Member]

can you contact her maybe?

I have had support workers, but they dont feel like they can support me i think or that im not helping myself enough or.. well i dont know really because they havent said anything. one of the two ladies that visits has been going on and off leave for a while and the other i feel like shes frustrated with me but hasnt actually said that so could be just my brain twisting things too. its been hard since before christmas not having a regular time/routine with them though. never sure whats happening.

[Pepsimax]

Yes I will ring her today I haven't had a regular time either with the holidays i get triggerd too with flashbacks they are terrible

[Former-Member]

i have several appointments today that i'm anxious about. have to see lawyer about family court/custody orders stuff. and an appt with psychologist that i need but still feeling scared. 

Flash backs are awful. i have been having mixed ones lately where one bad memory leads to a nother and that one remiinds me of a nother and i feel like im on some kind of roller coaoster of awful events from my life. 

[Pepsimax]

You seem to have a lot on your plate no wonder your up tight hope the psychologist goes ok